In 16th Century, there is a proverb. it says: Trouble brings Experience, and experience brings wisdom. how true it is.

in fact, I would prefer to say, indeed, trouble brings experience, but it would depend on how much effort you put in to deal with it, and learn from it. That's where the wisdom comes from.

Life has changed a lot since the very first day of being in Japan. From being an absolutely boring PhD students to an lovable happy young woman, that is quite a change, isn't it?

Now, days in Japan is counting down down, less than 100 days.
My babies, I love being here with you, but somehow I miss something and someone there.

Our women had been disturbed with a certain agenda--being smart to compete with mankind or stay dim to highlight mankind / be the garnish of mankind?

Of course, it's more about personal choice; but somehow it causes me concerned: "with all these responsibilities, maternal duties, sexual expectation of the society, and so on; how can we finally find the way to balance them out?"

Major dilemma, being a smart , self-confident woman with lots of compliments, honour, etc, but in every single minute, she has to face the difficulties alone, being extremely lonely(mentally ), with no secured shoulders to lean/cry on, no hugs to be comforted. In that sense of being intelligent, is it really a gift?

Unfortunately, we are way used to push ourselves to be tougher, better, stronger; for we have certain phobia of being silly, common cow, or anything else. And therefore, it is like an endless circle, which scaffolding up our depression, and so on and on.

Cynicism? No, it's just a cruel reality which keeps us in these hopeless, pathetic place. Abandoning? escaping? or avoiding the coming responsibilities? No! Never in a million years, being as a woman with those messed-up/ so-called intelligent mind, I will never give up, but keep on going and struggling.

If there is a thing called "Destiny", and everything in our life is scheduled long before. Then what about the thing we call "effort"?

So downcast, so depressed.
I am, after all, a woman, a weak and the lost one!

Since when people can not take the truth anymore? I was wandering.
No, we would never be able to, the answer is.

Every day, we are playing to be someone not as ourself, even we thought we are.
Every moment, we are trying to escape from the tough reality and problems, even we behaved as we are confronting to.
Every turning point of our life, we are avoiding the coming responsibility, even we altruistically believed we are doing for good.

The so-called happily-ever-after thoughts no longer exist, but replaced by cruel fact of hurting , lying, and whatsoever.

What a pathetic planet we are living!
True, sweetheart, you are right, we should blame Disney!!!

I was wandering, if human emotion could be linear?
Most of time, people's emotional life ain't linear like having an incidental event can't just suddenly bring peace to us. Then we've been told that "I guess you have to try. When things come down to that, what kind of choices you have?". Since 1980s, many aspects of emotion have become hot subjects in psychology, but "WHY people are emotional" this area has been relatively neglected. We've been talked enormously by investigating children's living phenomenon, but less studies in adults. The concept of self, self-identities, the socialization, and so on. The easiest way to say about it is, we are born to attached with certain things/ persons/ places, no one is exceptional. Once the attachment is breaking down, emotion is getting changed. There is a learning curve, but again, not linear.

So here, a toast to our cursed mind, "one way or another, we are screwed" !!

It's been days after this tragic earthquake happened in Sichuan, an rich and beautiful province of China. Had this bad news almost at the first minute when the tragedy happened, for daddy was just right on the flight and waiting for landing on Sichuan. What things would have changed if the earthquake had happened 15 minutes delayed while my father has landed? There is always complex for me about the issues toward Chinese. To distinguish innocent people from Authorities somehow is more likely a struggle. Their plight might have touched my heart. However by thinking of the issues towards basic human rights related to recent protest of Tibet, I must admit, I became a completely cold-hearted person.

After few days calmed down, I then realized that I have in fact been in mistake profoundly. For we are sharing this planet, even we were born in different countries or with different cultures, we are all in the fact of being human. Let politics be politics, and only.

Therefore, let's pause in act of remembrance for the those victims, and pray the peace and bliss will be delivered for their families.

The reality is quite a dilemma, so as this Frankenstein Science as you addressed.
Science has its own scientific way. Only when it comes with server moral issues, argument is arisen. Stem cell research has been in the spot light for years, participants in trials of clinic research either benefit from it or in the obvious another situation. The point is not about that if we should continue the research or have this bills passed, but the humaneness issues.

Jodi Picoult 2004 wrote a fiction about saviour siblings, 'My sister's keeper'
, which describes deeply the inside story of being a born saviour. However, take this thought into concern, when keeping babies' cord blood becomes a fashionable stream, why people will believe Controlling this kinda science research is urged and crucial?

We are all writing our story of our life. We want to know how it's 'about'.
Coincidentally had a pretty interesting remark from a friend, it reminded me a book I read before, "what should I do with my life?" by Po Bronson. He said in the beginning of the book, "The obvious Questions don't have obvious Answers" which sounds paradox but quite a nice view of our life. Lots questions we have been asking for ourselves, what are the themes of our life and which theme is on the rise? where we are heading to? And hopefully,we are not trying to run out the surprise but want to be ensured that when the ending comes.

Those question are so obvious, ain't they? Unfortunately, answers might be lots but the obvious ones? There is none. I must admit in the certain point of looking for guidance and courage at the cross road of life, even by being as stubborn as a mule, that I became somehow intrigued by people who had unearthed their true callings (or we might say they had convinced to accept the callings are what they were born for), or at least those who are willing to try (or may we say they were just being absolutely unscheduled and unorganized)

However in the case of this meaning, it would be more likely to say with what Po Bronson wrote in his book--"nothing seems more brave than facing up to one's own identity, and filter out the chatter that tells us to be someone we are not".

So then, still the question remains, what should I do with my life?

Just few minutes after I finished my last article, I browsed hers and found this-- love and sex with robots, by David Levy. Indeed, it isn't a science fiction, but a science fact!

It might be freaky, but makes us think of it, why not?

If having relationship somehow means to fill the humans' needs and desires, then robots with high intelligence, even those are artificial, could be one of the multiple choices.
Apart from the old story about the argument of the morality of treating Robots, the newest controversial argument is now about that we, human beings, are heading inexorably towards a society where human affection and human desire are extended into psychological and physical relationships with robots. Again, human world had been inexorable already, having sex and extended relationship with robots seem just fine to us.

However, based on Darwin's theory, wouldn't it be another biological challenge that we human beings have, to produce better species, the invulnerable ones.

Dying for reading this.

The author http://gizmodo.com/347233/love-and-sex-with-robots-author-on-colbert

A story around the two best friends, Kamryn Matika and Adele Brannon, and of course the ever sweetest girl--Tegan, Adele Brannon's accidental baby after a mistake sex with her best friend's finance--Nate.

Sometimes life teaches me perfectly right lesson at the right time. I finished it recently, my best friend's girl, which was nice reading somehow.

What would you do for the friend who broke your heart? I asked myself. "Nothing but take it"
Life shouldn't be that complicated, even at the age of 21 century.

“All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another.” Anatole France said.
Having changes is more difficult than its appearance, so is entering to another life.

What it comes, it goes. Till when, the fear of being betrayed will be gone? To what extend, when our renewed life will come?